Unreason and insanity
But for the want of silence.

Gah one of those horrid moods upon me, Memories of past wrongs rights fights loves deaths and so many things. I left a life when i moved to sydney. For some who would think me sagely and wise for having seen so much in so short of time never forget, Knowledge does have a price.

Me tinks that’s why Christians felt that tree was so important, Odin spent a day in one, Your Christ spend his final hours in one… Hmm Maybe it was because he wanted us to enjoy the now before he let us see the true horror that conscious thought and supposed free will brings… You can believe any damned thing you want to because all of it is true ;)

who is making u all confused like this?
Anonymous

Hello

Confused how sorry?

Bryce

What does it mean to be a goth, in your eyes? I understand this a very broad question, but I'm quite curious to hear your take on it.
Anonymous

Hello..

Sorry it took so long to reply, I didn’t know this was even here :( Also apologies my answer is rather long :(

Goth to me is different to ME as it were ;)

But to me being a goth is a very open thing, I’m an alternate soul, Funny enough i’m a GIANT goth stereotype in that so many of the things associated with being goth well i am.. Even so much in the elder goths making a joke of it, I don’t do it on purpose? HA…

But sorry i digress, I think if you feel it and its in your mind set then hell yes you be it in your way. Mind set i mean, I am adverse to fad goths… I think the idea of a phase “Being told its nothing but a” isn’t nice… But other that that i think everyone has a form that is special to them, Now i do get myself in trouble saying such haha because many “elite” goths feel only certain people in their eyes are “OK” lol. But i think if you have colour or you are happy or you don’t fit the stereo type then hell yeah to you…

I don’t like emo though.. They call it goth lol… But i’m older and rather set in my ways hahaha Oh also to add lol, I’m a Crow Goth BAHAHAHAHA i was the emo of 15 years ago bahahaha, But the thing is those emo’s might fucking find themselves, I found a few ;) Jerry ya little shit :D

If you read all this then thankyou :D i hope the answer was what you wanted.

Bryce

“Drama if not annoying is laughable”.

Total rant about nothing….. Read at your own expense. :) Hence the pic. Non serious.. Stop reading.

I just had my drunk neighbor come over and tell me the story of how another idiot came by and acted all hard core on me..
To bad the alternate folks in the house upon hearing this got rather shitty, Curious..
He told me he’s going to bash this guy and all that jazz mean while affirming our punk goth alternate bond.. Nice enough fellow? Put me off getting drunk whilst i was drinking my burbon and cokes… Oh darn still drinking.

But i suppose it was nice to hear i had the backing of half the house hold against an idiot who was causing problems.. Seems i might need to review my own bleak outlook of this house…

Still.. Drunk people are fun… Mate i’m so sore… 11 hours today, I moved 2 full trucks of heavy cabinets and all the steel that bloody well went in them.. Good work out i must say.. Oh hell i even got told i’m really dropping the kilos.. Nice to hear…

I’d love to say something intelligent, I’m well known for it, i’ve to many people who see me as a source of stability and wisdom, Really i’m not that smart, Only very very lucky. If not for a few turns of fate who knows ;)

But i do appreciate my friends one and all, I find it hard to say sometimes but i do what i can. And yes supposedly i’m a bright spark.. But the friends and family in my life not only power that spark but show me the path ahead, The one i don’t always see myself..

OKies enough with the sappy shit.. Oh no mia just entered my head.. :D :D

If you’ve read all this i’m impressed and i do thankyou. I might not always say amazing things or be a good read even HAHA, But heck i do the same… Damn me to hell….

MalkavianMadnessNetwork… A member of the anti NO anarch? Yeah… i is anarch.

When you look into an abyss, the abyss also looks into you”.

Just a thought.

TOTAL RANT here.. “abandon hope all ye who enter here”

Begs the question doesn’t it, I live this existance and enjoy it, Least when i’m free again. I do no aspire for notions of societies norms, And though gift of chaos and fate i’ve become what i have and follow a path with more lines then i know what to do with.

And another seeks to join this existance with me? Questions far and fold truth be told anyone who can truely deal with my insanity and even thrive within it are truely worthy of nothing less then total respect.. Heck i can  has friends also?

I had a rather big moment, Philosophical questions ticking long enough find a way to be answered, Seems to be my bloody curse that.

My neighbour is almost gone now, Something not many know about, As one good friend put it i am here for a reason, Meaning this house next to him. Even i feel such, His going to die, Least i can do is be a friend to see you off the mortal realm.

This will make the third time, Sigh world ya wonder why sometimes i’m sombre, See enough death you forget how to smile, She holds a great place in my heart sadly, But heck i do smile and i am happy, I just… Wankie regal goth  wanna be? :D Yes’em that would describe, I’ve a whole life. Thing is if you want to make me smile, Don’t show me intelligence and things of structure.

Sadly i’m a bit stupid child in the body of an adult, You miss out on shit a the start you can find a way to catch up. I’ve been told by some i look a bit simple. I do appreciate that, Now if i can get the retarded look OFF my face and into my brain :D

It matters not the language used, Not the grammar, the spelling not even a wit. The message understood has power no matter how simply put.

Nothing less then anything else.

Thats the problem i tell you, So many words and so little meaning.

Everyone’s got something to say, But so few get understood, Or even asked in the damned first place.

Life is to complicated, Yet for complication wanting simplicity makes your efforts less then societies own.

Yet what if you that person who has 2 children a wife and house merely envies the person who decided not to.

You hate me because you aren’t me. You hate me because you can’t claim me as your own.

Shards of a mirror every where, Mirror broken oh despair! But of my mind i’d say no other way.

FINE

Ripples of life and death
flash before my eyes i see
the many paths of fate, the future
the past and present, they all call
to me asking me what things would
have been should be and could
be if i take them.
I wonder, i fear i smile
and laugh, I cry with sorrow,
smile with delight.
For i do not know which
path i shall take tonight.
The past calls, willing me back,
and the future says to me i am what
you will be.
But all i can say to them is,
What of the present?

See look all poety now :P In proper form an sentence. Shit even got published.

If i was to really never be forgotten i should ask not to be remembered in the first place…. :) Answer that one i dare you.

Idealist unreality.

I hope this might inspire people to peace and greater humanity, I’m a simple heartfelt writer, Only one man. If you like this work or think its words might hold meaning to others share this, Link it copy paste and put it out to be seen, I offer free use to put on sites, If you add please put a quote in and add your name, I would love this to become something everyone can add to have a thought a feeling or comment to.

Its a big write i know, I know many won’t read and fewer will even notice it exits, But its here.

Peace and harmony a hard creature to obtain look after and keep within your grasp, It like a cat belives it owns you and wants to be fed and noticed, Patted and adored. Your time is precious and so is finding peace an relaxation in a hecktic world.

I am not perfect i am flawed and human, I’ve more flaws then a skyscraper, But i feel love compassion hate sorrow and all the gamit of human emotion.

We all are so diverse and different in thoughts perception and everything that makes us whole, Sometimes its hard to agree with others or even with yourself. But a peace forms in the things and the people we love. Nothing wrong with having objects and loving a fetish close to heart, Western zen baby, Important as anything  the east has, And made for us. Objects can be taken away but in their loss a strengh of purpose for existance can be granted.

As i said we won’t all get along and we won’t all agree. But sometimes we need to forget our more base emotions “Base might be to strong a word” But not get angry at someone who lacks understanding in our ways, Or not to think less of someone for not looking like we do or not being as smart or able as us.

Look at our lives, We create a ripple that we don’t even see, Imagine seeing it for the first time, What would it look like? each action you perform creates an affect that can change the world.

Such amazing things can come of the internet and the matter of transport that makes communication so easy, We can speak with the world and find understanding in so many places.

 I’m sorry i go a little in random directions, Sadly this is how i am, I have a thousand thoughts at once and i think far to much about far to much. hahahaha.

But less anger is needed, Don’t listen to people who don’t understand, Venting doesn’t always help, People sometimes need to be alone and the hard to understand fact is emotion is controlled “At least in most cases” By ourselves, In no way to i take away from the unlucky soul bitten by the black dog, Or those who haven’t sound someone to explain their own questions or even need to answer the meanings of life.

Its curious i find it so hard to say what i think, I can’t speak fast enough to get my ideas out in proper order, So sometimes people don’t understand me, I find it hard, But i myself need to learn tolerance and also humility in that people are far and beyond my own means and intelligence in many ways.

We should sit and consider all we have, It might not be much but what of it! Its yours You worked hard to make your little piece of house a home. You have family and friends people who love you, Potentially children, I was blessed, And thank the goddess my own mothers dangerously harsh lessons made sure i would treat my own child with good heart and honest intentions, The ones that pave hell. Yes’em i know good ones but lol.

I’ll stop talking, I’m glad for what i wrote, Noone may see it, But i don’t mind. It was said maybe in a hundred years this will be found and someone will ask of the eccentric and curious mind who blathered on about random aspects of humanity in a time long ago.

I think we have an evolution to come, Some might belive we are darwins dead end… Maybe… But with each ice age some things survived… With a little hope a good deed and hopes people who have all the money in the world might use some jsut a little to further the cause for their own countries.

I don’t mind that they worked to get rich and are so.. And i know many help.. But so many don’t.

I don’t say let the next walk by world vision con artist ruin you with funds paying to make more of them say HEY YOU! and proceed to take more funds.

But my mind wanders my thoughts are for now spent. I’m glad i’ve had this moment to speak this, Tomorrow i might not be so able, It comes and goes.

Read a work tomorrow and you will plant a seed, Read it in ten years and watch the plant that hath taken root upon the rich soul of open mind and watch flowers bloom, New perspective given mind greater blessing.

From the bloodied ink of the fallen savant and child unto the universe of knowledge and wisdom.

Bryce William O’brien

Shame within shame without.

Fallen from grace only a moments notice fleeting, Driven from the highest point on the mountains peak, A vista of sight sound and imagination, To fall watching clouds above and home now lost angels abode, Forever denied. Whistling grace the song of harsh breeze as i fall faster unto the arms of a godess best denied if grace wills it.

……..

Hope of moments notice.

All about a muse i am for questions i cannot help but ask and answers i hope for so denied my cruel vices know nothing more then written word phrase and verse.

Perspicacity be both my blessing and total curse, I can see so many bindings in the great machine that it becomes to much and i wish i could take out mine own eyes so that i might stop. But the best of burden the brain isn’t so besotten with quiet murmers and un felt dreams, But for all the gifts the abyss would bring i’d not find the answers i need. Goddess take me in her time and never ask me the reason behind my verse or rhyme, For the shadows are long and the lights do fade quckly. Luck for now beast of minds burden sent emotion stone and urgings unspent.

I think if someone gave me a purpose to my writing i’d make a new piece of philosophy all of my own accord, With chaos and control a life not caring for anger or annoyance at the needs of the now, Well I’m writing it, Maybe i need more age, i can read and watch the world as much as not.

But i digress and rant… My life is my own, I want to cherish all those who i’m so lucky to find within it and i hope offer a touch of the same in my own aloof kinda way. I will choose my own fate and with it learn what i can before goddess takes her due.

I’m in love with love herself, No wonder reality doesn’t compare….

I’m already here.

Thats about how it feels to be me right now. By the gods it says a lot. Heh heh. I’m in a mood quite something acid dreams, and lucid screams of pleasure woe and sunder.

And in my dreams come vistas of sound and solace. Peace and light of unfettered existance. For a moment no society no friend no worldly measure breaks the silence of beautiful embrace.

The mind that makes matters don’t matter to make the mind. It all is just imagination. A writer cannot be taught to be beautiful, Only beauty can be found from within. But a mind without bound yet no guidance is no less given, a path soon need be set.

I only seek to learn all i can so that i might in some small way learn just why i’m here. A quest i’ll spend my life going for, working living and enjoying life as much as i can with that which i am given. “And all i can fucking take also” Because thats how i roll lol. Wow from inspiring words to drivel… Least i know what drivel means!.